don't breed hate babies

currently listening to: love letter to japan by the bird and the bee

so overall today has been really really shitty. its been too short, too long, lonely and overfilled with people. its been very trying on my nerves and my heart. i feel emotionally and physically exhausted and i just want to go to sleep and wake up when i turn 33. i'll be passed all this judgement, trivial and annoying emotions for people who either don't deserve them or won't reciprocate (FUCK!), and i'll finally get away from the hate babies.

i loathe hate babies. they stem from uber-religious zealots, superconservative assholes (see: ann coulter), and ignorant hypocrites. i live with a few actually. people, ususally children, who come out of the womb without the ability to think rationally for themselves. they turn to their homophobic intolerant hate mongering CHRISTIAN parents and soak up all putrid hate they can absorb. then they go to church and hear the same "Christian" crap over and over again. god hates fags, donate to us so we can build churches as freaking huge as the vatican, or maybe: men, you can be priests but you silly ladies are incapable of turning bread into body and wine into blood.

do you really think this is how Jesus Christ wants you to live and act? Thats not the Jesus i know and love. Jesus was extremely poor, he preached about living without materials but one of the highest concentrations of gold and precious metals in the world is VATICAN FREAKING CITY! Jesus preached about loving your neighbor as yourself and not passing judgement. He taught that love transcends all things but apparently to "christians and the parishoners of st. peter and paul catholic church" gay people aren't included in that little statement. and its all done in His holy name!

these people aren't christian. they follow "infallible" (whose idea was that anyway) teachings that come from regular old imperfect human beings. so from now on i'm not christian. I am a follower of Christ. i wish to live my life the way my Jesus Christ would. without the interfereing meddlings of men (but not women) who are so damn confused they wouldn't recognize Jesus if He bit them in the ass.

wow. what a rant! that was fun ;)



hate babie example #1 (more to follow at a later date):

so i picked up my little sister form my aunt's house today and we were planning to see the play at st. lucys (which we unfortunately missed cuz i was late). she started telling me how excited she was to start school at lucys in two years. we talked about her class color, all the good teachers and the crappy ones, how the rallies were. you know regular st. lucys stuff. then after a brief pause she looks at me and says these exact words:

"I just hope that when I'm there, there aren't any lesbos. Because they are creepy and gross. EWWWWW."

i looked forward, considering the irony of the situation and slowly sarcastically say: "oh i know. they are quite disgusting." she just looked at me and smiled completely missing the sarcasm, like we were engaging in a pleasant conversation about the weather.

i hope to God she breaks from her naivety and accepts all forms of life and love. i don't want to see her in ten years wallowing her hatred of anything different or foreign to her like my parents or the freaking entirety of the catholic church. maybe when i finally come out to her and my other brother and sister they will have made friends or grown tolerance or maybe even seen the error in their primitive ways. i truly hope so because i don't think i could live with the same rejection i have from my parents coming from my siblings. it would be just too much hatred from the hate babies.