the door slams loud

listening to: burning by the whitest boy alive

current thoughts:
-attention deficit disorder medicines
-knee pain
-mean cleaning lady
-intelligent design
-working in a few minutes
-i should put some pants on

i've been listening to a lot of lily allen's new album recently. ever the critic i figured she was just like my dear amy winehouse or that bloody terrible duffy. (wouldn't it be funny if i actually used the word bloody in a sentence not concerning english stuff or ronald weasley?) but i heard her song fuck you on XMU the indie music sirius station in my new car. new favorite song, not just because its so comically hypocritical but its so ironically relevant to me. so after picking up my 6 inch veggie on wheat at subway i went straight home and downloaded the album in its entirety. i gave the song "him" a listen and sat stunned in my bamboo desk chair.

ever since he can remember people have died in his good name

he doesn't know whats right or wrong

do you think his favorite type of person is caucasian.

his favorite band is creedence clearwater revival


well what the fuck does that mean? either shes on one hell of a trip or she is way more intelligent than i had initially determined. and i happen to strongly believe i'm the one at fault here. maybe i've watched religulous a few too many times but with that influence in cunjunction with everything going on in my life and lily allen's song i have become inspired to define what i believe. so here goes:

my god is gender free

i don't believe in someone who hates or is jealous.

my god loves gay people, black people, muslim people, and stupid people.

i don't believe in hell because i don't elieve in a god that would create something as beautiful but temptable as a human being just to let it suffer for eons in a firey pit of dispair

my god doesn't want you to kill people

my god believes in evolution.

my god sees love in every form as the most perfect human emotion be it sexual, spiritual, physical, or emotional love

my god doesn't condem based on the judgements of humans but has a divine discernment that no one else posseses. which is why its a god.

my god is not hindu, christian, muslim, buddhist, or any other human institution of religion

my god is in everyone and everything. it eminates from all actions and thoughts and affects every desicion and every occurence

my god is loving, tolerant, merciful, and non-judgemental

my god is probably covered in tattoos and listens to the elton john